It has been so long since I have posted here…way too long. I really need to get back to my writings.
A lot has happened in our lives. We have moved from our mountain home to where Master grew up in Middle Georgia. It has been a year and a half now and I am still getting used to it. I still find myself longing for home on many occasions. We are living in the house where Master grew up. His father passed away a year ago in April and here we stayed. I like it here and the house is nice and I have made it home. Of course though…home is where ever Master is. Our lives have changed somewhat. We live next door to Masters mother and his family lives very close by. So, the way we used to live is quite different. But, we make it work and who we are never changes.
Getting the house and property in order seems to be a never ending project. Maybe one day it will come together and things will slow down. This is our life now and life goes on, it may change but who we are still remains.
On Fetlife there is a group that someone started called YoLU. It stands for Year Of Living Uncomfortably. It’s like a journey. A journey of not letting our fears own us and not letting others define us, and becoming who we want to be. it’s about stepping out of our boxes and testing our own boundaries and limitations. In discomfort we grow! So this is the start of my YoLU. My youngest daughter left for college a few weeks ago and I am adjusting to not having kids in the house for the first time since I was 19 years old. It’s hard to believe that my children are grown and on their own. I am enjoying the breathing room, but at the same time its bitter-sweet. Master and I are now for the first time able to be who we are fully. We are able to have our rituals and protocols out in the open. That feels really good. I am going to try to start going to some munches and meet some people and make some friends. I feel like I don’t have that in my life and it would be good to have others to talk to and be active with. I am also going to use this time to try to lose some weight. I really need to. I think I would feel so much better about myself and I am sure Master would like it if I would. My life has dramatically changed. I just hope I can move forward in the way that I want to. Its going to be a challenge!